A couple weeks ago, I was pretty content with my life. I was working a tolerable job that pays decent money, enjoying the bliss of being newly married, and basking in the reality of adulthood. I was truly proud of where I had ended up (for 22!).
Well that changed a couple weeks ago when Southwest Airlines reached out to me about a possible job offer. At first I wasn’t sure if I wanted to shake up what I had going for me. But after speaking with Southwest on the phone, I started to wonder what else was out there and possibly believing this could be a good fit for me, so I agreed to an interview. I was focusing on not getting my hopes up, but after the interview, I realized how unhappy I was settling for the job I have.
Now don’t get me wrong, I am grateful for the job I have, but the company is making some changes and I am not really on-board with what has been going on. It is just not a place or an industry I see myself in for a long time. I miss interacting with people and letting my personality shine. I miss feeling like an asset and not just an employee. I miss utilizing my talents and abilities. But I really dislike searching and applying for jobs – hence my hesitation for letting Southwest in.
In the beginning, I felt that Southwest reaching out to me was a God-sent. I thought that maybe God saw how I was wasting away my talents and wanted to kickstart my future by sending me this opportunity, but nothing has happened yet. I haven’t received a call saying they want to add me to their team, but I also haven’t been told they don’t. But now I am restless! I can’t stop thinking about needing a change and being unhappy where I am. I can’t stop thinking about how I don’t want to stay at my current company and feeling iffy about the new changes.
I want to trust that God knows what He’s doing. I want to have patience and let Him work. I want to understand how and why he is working in my life. I always want to know all the little details about everything and that is a very difficult trait when trying to be a Christ-follower. As a Christ-follower, we aren’t supposed to know God’s timing or why He makes the decisions He does; instead we are supposed to be patient and actively seeking Him while trusting that He knows what He’s doing.
As always, I’m not perfect, so I am still wrestling with the not-knowing, but I am praying for more patience and trust. Let the waiting continue!